I feel like a piece of me is dusty

ART. I miss it. Everytime i see picture of someone's art online, I get this sick feeling like im missing out on something. Why dont I just do it you ask? Because... I
dont know.

I think the main reason is because It always seems to take priority over things that need to get done. Like right now, I am blogging about how i miss art, while i should be studying for patho. see? I think, though, that I shall make it a point to dust off that inner artist in me and try to just do it without it getting in the way of school.

cool.

Galveston

Im going on a mini vacation! Wes' uncle is paying for our food and gas for come down to Galveston for two days to help them unpack and move into their new house. Im excited because it just-so-happens to fall on the 4th of July so we will get to celebrate on the beach. (although I hear the beaches there are "crappy", it's still a beach, right?)
Any who.

Also, Kona got a cold, and now Bentley has it. Its so sad, they keep sneezing. We took them to the vet and got them some medicine, but last night bentley was kind of acting like he had a fever. He isnt as resilient as Kona is.

I got a book in the mail from API (academic programs international). It talks about spainsh culture and what to pack, etc.. According to the book, it is considered rude in Spain to eat with your hands in your lap, you are supposed to keep your hands visible at all times or you are considered "sneaky". It is a custom that goes back hundreds of years, when people could have been hiding a weapon or something under the table. Also, Its really common to have a pair of house shoes, to take your shoes off at the door and put on when you are in the house because if you walk around barefoot you might get a cold hehe.
I think something I am really going to struggle with, that I already knew about is the fact that they tell time like military time. Im not very quick in my head with basic math, and thats what I feel like Im doing everytime I try to figure it out. haha that will be interesting.

Caution.. whiney blog entry below

is it really meant for me to go to spain? I am starting to wonder. I dont understand what I am doing wrong. Why cant for once, everyone go as planned, everything just work out. It was. I was making just the right amount of money. Now, Unless by some miracle i get a job that pays like 400$ a week, There is no way I can save enough money to go to spain. on top of that, I was relieved that atleast the program cost/tuition was paid for. Except only to find out today that the financial aid officer made a tiny little mistake telling me that my financial aid equaled 8,500$ (my program being 8,100) and actually the financial aid is only 5,750. So now, on top of saving for money to live off of, I have to come up with 2,350 more dollars just so i can even go.
I know i sound dramatic, theres far worse thing that could be happening in my life. I am so blessed. But its just disheartening when something you want so bad seems so unrealistic and hard to reach when you had every detail planned out. Its the worst feeling to be sitting at home, doing nothing, when you need to be working because I cant get any more hours from Jaspers.


I should be studying instead of blogging.

Our Daily Monsters

So Wes discovered this artist named Stefan G. Bucher, who creates these really cute monsters by taking ink and blowing it, then drawing off of that ink. Its really interesting and you can see these monsters at http://344design.typepad.com/344_loves_you/
There is a video on there that shows him drawing a monster so you can better see how its done.
Anyways, Wes had the idea that we should make our own monsters. So we dug out our old art supplies and here is what we came up with:

This is Melvin, Wes did this one. I like it. This one is my favorite.

Poor Dr. Kenneth, I can't seem to get him right-side-up. Wes did this one too.

This one is my favorite (of mine) Her name is Darla.
This is Sebastian.





This is Wes' favorite of mine. His name is Marcos. He is wearing a purple bow tie.

Well that was fun, I encourage all to try it too! its a fun project and you can email him your creations.

Waiting

Well I got notice today that I am "among the top candidates" and that i will find out if i got the nanny job in the next day or so. Part of me has this feeling like its not going to work out and I wouldnt really be that upset about it. I kind of need something that is more hours and more money. We will see what happens.
For the past two days, I have had a sore throat. Its that nagging sore throat that kind of gives you that gagging feeling but you can still eat and stuff. Its really not that painful, just annoying. But the weird part is otherwise I am perfectly fine and I have no symptoms. My glands are swollen and look really nasty. I hope it goes away soon ive never experienced a sore throat with no other symptoms.

my life is really exciting.
da end.

But my Brain knows better...

I think this song is beautiful.

I got a few personal trainer sessions. My arms hurt.
I need to go study for pathophysiology.
I feel bored.
My family went to LA this weekend to see natosha. By family I mean Mom Dad and Cam. I stayed home because i had to work and Kendra too (but she lives in denton). So I was all alone this weekend. It was relaxing yet kind of lonely and I am glad they are coming home today.

Just breathe.

Today Parker, (the kid I nanny for) walked for the first time. He took two steps and he stood up without holding onto anything. But I was so excited. I haven't been that excited in a long time, and hes not even mine. I have been getting in the grove of things (his schedule and temperament) and been forming sort of an attachment with him. Its weird because he can't even talk, but hes so smart. when you ask him "Parker, where's your shirt?" He smiles really big and yanks at his shirt a few times.
Well today, after showing his mom that he can sort of walk, She told me that his grandmother will be moving to Texas the week after next and that I won't be needed anymore. I know she feels bad, she told me and her eyes were watering and I understand she feels like she can't deny her mother-in-law, I just feel so disappointed.With this job and Jaspers I was making just enough money to save for Spain and be comfortable at the same time. I can work at jaspers now more but in all honesty, I don't like it. I work there because I need to and because it is temporary. Now i have to work there every day. Bummer.

The more i think about it, and I know this sounds dramatic, I wish that she'd call me and say, Actually, Raquel, we like you better than grandma.


But I didn't think id be this sad, I feel so discouraged and I don't think i can get nearly the same amount of hours at Jaspers alone. On top of that I planed my school schedule around it so if i were to find another nanny job, It could only be Tuesdays and Thursdays and the chances of that are slim.

I'm anxious to see what God has in store. I don't really understand it. I felt like everything was right and perfect, and maybe that was just it, if everything is perfect I'm not growing. I trust that God will provide for me, I just wish that I didn't have to stop my nanny job, I really enjoyed it.For once I didn't dread going to work.

I know that this problem is a grain of sand compared to people who get laid off and can no longer feed their families. I know I am being a baby, I am just discouraged.