A lot of Random thoughts... Blogging at work

So much for Labor Day Weekend. Friday 7-close, Sat 9-2/6-close, Sunday 4-close. I guess that's what you get though when you tell your manager you need money. I am thankful for the hours, but this will be rough, I work everyday this week. I am blogging at work. They make us come in at 9 but we don't open until 11. And I cant start confirming reservations until about 10 or I get chewed out (I don't blame them). So I have an hour to burn.

I leave in about three weeks. Its funny when people ask me if I am excited it always seems to throw me off a little, even though I am of course, and I should be used to that question by now. I guess its just because there are so many emotions about leaving that it's hard to pin-point how I'm feeling. I did come to a conclusion yesterday though that changed my whole outlook on the trip. I've been feeling a little unsure about my ability to really accomplish the whole reason why I am going, to be fluent. Then I read this quote in API's online orientation and this guy had basically said that "you can go to Spain and hardly speak any Spanish, or you can go to Spain and hardly speak any English, the choice is yours". I guess that's when I realized that how much I learn over there really depends on me. I'm going to have to get over being embarrassed, and looking stupid and just learn to laugh at myself and speak as much as possible and study as much as possible. I may not come back fluent, but my goal is to come back and not regret any wasted time there, to come back and feel like I gave it my all. Afterall, its not over when I come back, I still have time to "tweak". I have to take a class when I get back where we read Spanish novels. Hopefully, like my micro teacher says, it will "tie up everything Ive learned in a nice little bow". On a lighter note I found out my host mom's name is Carmen, she lives with a 17 year old daughter named Paula, and its a 10 min walk from school, non smoking, no pets, and my roommate is named Amie. Shes really nice I've talked to her on facebook. That's pretty much all I know.

I finished nannying yesterday. It's going to be sad and I am going to miss Gabriel. I think we grew kind of attached to each other. His mom was really upset and crying when I left, I really love that family they are so sweet, I will miss them.

Last week was kind of a rough week, for a few reasons I don't need to blog about but mainly because last week we found out that Wes' dad has stage 4 cancer. I won't go into details but he is doing great and about to start chemo and I think he is going to do really well. Hes really strong and so is Wes. So whoever is reading if you could say a prayer for him.

That's pretty much It. I guess I should actually go to work now.
TTFN

Dear great void,

How do you interpret nothing?

I guess Ill blog.

Yesterday was Wes and Kevin's 2nd show. I didn't think i could make it but i got off work early (they didnt give me the night off). I was glad I made it. Their music is so pretty.

I finished Art and Patho.

Next week is the last week of my nanny job.

I leave for Spain in about a month and I am freaking out. (understatement)

The end.

I started to write a blog, and then i realized that i really don't have anything interesting to say about my life.
So i think I will take this opportunity to say,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KATE!

(tomorrow).
I love you, you are a very special friend to me, and I hope your day is very special too.